Call me a babble, or a complete ranter. But I couldn't give a rats ass. I want to go home. Now. I'm breaking down everynight now and I just want my mom. This is too much for me. And not being able to use my phone is worse, even though I have my laptop, and the fact that my Fucking Camera BROKE doesn't help either. 2 and a half weeks left and I am dieing inside, literally. Now this isn't meant to be a suicide note, so lets get away from there. The last thing from saying that is I am dieing on the inside. I want my friends, my mom, my dad, my sister, and YES, even my brothers! I miss fighting with Scott, and the small 2 minute conversations with Cory. I'm so filled with all these emotions and it hurts. Crying everynight doesn't even seem to let any of the emotional stress go! I have cried so much on this trip and I dont want to do it anymore. I want my home, and my bed, and my blue carpet, and my kitchen! I just want it all back. I want to feel my moms arms around me again, not have to pretend hug or kiss her throught the god damned webcam!
I just can't do this anymore. The remaining 17 days are going to be hell. World, prepare for the fake smiles and laughs, because this girl is losing her spirit...
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