OH DEAR GOD!
SNAIL MAIL, GOD LOVES YOU NOW
STEPHANIE ALZATE, I GOT YOUR 3 PAGED LETTER!!!!!!!
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so, i just walked outside to get the mail...
2 weeks ago tomorrow, steph sent out a letter to me... I still HAVENT GOTTEN IT!!!
and like, a week after I left, Stevie sent out a letter as well. Yeah, that never came either.
DAMN SNAIL MAIL, God doesnt like you!
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Ten years ago on this very day, my family and I lost my Uncle Jack due to a heart attack. He was my god father, and from what I have heard, a great uncle. Unfortunatly for me, I was too young when he passed, and the only memory I have of him is at a family picnik when I was about 4 years old, and my daddy was holding me in his arms talking to Uncle Jack when he started to play with me, but I started whimpering and pushing away from him to stay with my Dad becuase I was shy. Thus is why it is hard for me as I barely had the chance to get to know him. When Uncle Jack passed, I was too young to know what was going on. I remember my mom getting a phone call from my Aunt Nancy (his wife) and my mom said she had to go for a little while. So while many members of my family were at the hospital, I was sitting in my room with my grandmother on the other side of the family clueless and to young to know what was going on. When I was finally old enough to realize what had happened, I would cry often, asking myself why did he have to go? I would cry becuase I never knew him well enough. When I watch old family videos, a Christmas one in particular, I always feel my heart speed up when I see him. I do miss him, a lot. It amazes me that even though I barely knew him, I still get upset when we talk about him, and even more upset on this very day every year. Although he isn't here with my family and I physically, I know and I can feel him here in each of us, watching us and helping us. I miss you Uncle Jack, so much, and I wish I could have known you more. I love you, and I'll gaze up at you in the stars again tonight, just like everyother.
Your forever in my heart, dear Godfather. I love you. Rest in Peace.
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Call me a babble, or a complete ranter. But I couldn't give a rats ass. I want to go home. Now. I'm breaking down everynight now and I just want my mom. This is too much for me. And not being able to use my phone is worse, even though I have my laptop, and the fact that my Fucking Camera BROKE doesn't help either. 2 and a half weeks left and I am dieing inside, literally. Now this isn't meant to be a suicide note, so lets get away from there. The last thing from saying that is I am dieing on the inside. I want my friends, my mom, my dad, my sister, and YES, even my brothers! I miss fighting with Scott, and the small 2 minute conversations with Cory. I'm so filled with all these emotions and it hurts. Crying everynight doesn't even seem to let any of the emotional stress go! I have cried so much on this trip and I dont want to do it anymore. I want my home, and my bed, and my blue carpet, and my kitchen! I just want it all back. I want to feel my moms arms around me again, not have to pretend hug or kiss her throught the god damned webcam!
I just can't do this anymore. The remaining 17 days are going to be hell. World, prepare for the fake smiles and laughs, because this girl is losing her spirit...
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Sooo I went out to Lunch today before Christine left for work. I went out with Emily and her friend Elisabeth. She is a really nice girl. We hit up SONIC, mmmmm, I got a sonic cheese burger and fries and a Medium Cherry Vanilla Diet Dr. Pepper... Sooo freaking good. haha. It is amazing how you can drive alone by the age of 16. Just not fair. AT ALL!
OMFG
LOL
So yesterday, Christine had the night shit (1-9). So Rebecca and I went for a walk around 7:00. So when we were walking, a guy approached us (not some creeper dude, he was pretty good looking, no older than 17) and started to strike up a conversation with me LOL! He asked where I lived and when I told him Canada, he actuallly said this: "Oh, so your actually from where the moose are?!" I couldnt stop laughing! His name is James, he plays hockey, interested in Football, probably 16, light brown hair, kinda short length but has the skater hair look, blue eyes. Good looking, but campaired to Bruno, he is nothing haha. Then he asked if he could pick me up and take me out to lunch sometime, and I told him that I'm kind of taken, and he tried again but said as friends this time... And I replied saying "we will have to see. I have a busy schedule"... and he said if luck so happens to bring us together again, promise you will let me take you out" and I said, so I agreed... I doubt I'm gonna see him again. I really rather not, although he was a nice boy.
So on Friday, I have to wake up early becuasee Christine has an early morning shift, and then when she gets home, I'm basically jumping in a rented Van and driving 5 hours, or more depending on traffic, to San Antonio... With Rebecca. It could be a very long ride. Thank god for my laptop and Ipod!
haha.
3 more weeks. 3 more weeks till I get to see mom, and bruno, and alex, and melissa, and stevie, and steph, and daniela, and EVERYONE!
IM SO EXCITEDDDDD!
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So I had a 24 hour flu bug the other day and it was quite gross.
I threw up :$
3/4 of a box of Kraft Dinner going in your mouth does not look as delicious when it comes back out the way it went it. No it does not.
It was simply horrible. I hadnt thrown up in over 10 years, and the one time I do, I don't have my mom there to help me through it :'( I miss her so much.
Only 3 more weeks to go and I'll be home...
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